I'm not there

I'm not there

You can sense it in their voice
No matter the intonations
No matter their glee
their joyful banter
the notion resides in the air
unneeding of recognition
or acknowledgment
There it is
plain as sunbeam
And we make no attempt
no salute
to it's putrid presence
Why do it
What need requires it
I am here,
cognizant and able
and for what

So I take my days in stride
keeping to myself
What reason do I have
to let on these feelings
these empty emotions
I am here
I'm not there
I'm not there
You hear!
I'm not there!
And you are
and you know it
And is there a care
And is there suppose to be
And who would have it
And why would they

I can only speculate
speculate and masturbate
And where does it get me
And where does that leave you
I can't force your emotions
I am here
I'm not there
Nothing more
Nothing less
So go on in your ways
Fill your time with it
Because you can't have
I'm not there